From Mother to Son
4 CommentsIt was your birthday,
The day you were born
No words could be spoken
What could I say?
This bond couldn’t be broken
There just was no way
When you first smiled
I couldn’t speak
Amazed at your wonder
In your crib I would peek
I was your mother
Your passage to life
Yet, I did not know you
Like husband and wife
You took in your own world
Stayed close to mine
I watched you with wanting
What would you find?
Joy everlasting
Love and your way
Keeping an eye
While not blocking the way
I couldn’t tell you
All that would come
I just watched as you reached
Far from my womb
A mother cannot let go
How hard tho’ they try
They only pretend
While keeping an eye
Guiding and hoping
That one day you’ll see
The words kept and spoken
Were just meant to be
Light on the path to your future
The safe road ahead
There is no way to tell you
Now that you’re gone
How hard that I tried
To be the right one
The one who could love you
And let you be free
To live your life fully
But able to see
That I was put on this earth for you
For eternity
And now there is silence
Since you’ve gone away
No music can help me
No words can one say
For you are my baby
My love and my heart
And now you’ve been taken
How do I start?
To tell you I’m sorry
My words didn’t heal
The burden you carried
The way you did feel
I’m hoping the wind
Will find you for me
And tell you I miss you
And how hard I tried
There are no more words now
Just how hard I’ve cried.
So beautifully written, saying everything I also feel. Ian is also buried beside my Mom and Dad whom he loved with all his heart.
Thank you for expressing what I didn’t know how to say, for Sean from you, and to Ian, from me.
With all my love,
Joan Harper Rescigno
Sorry I don’t have any links for you but I did read a very interesting meidcal study a few years ago about chronic alcoholism in the father causing a higher incidence of autism in his children than the general healthy population.So, its not just the mother’s healthy while carrying the fetus. There is an actual study about how the dna of male sperm is affected by alcoholism, drug abuse and exposure to harmful chemicals over a lifetime.
Debbie,
This is very touching. I know your heart must still be bleeding. I can only imagine the pain that you must fill. As a parent of my own two special need sons, I sometimes get scared of the future. No one knows what life will bring. We can only pray and have faith that there is more to life than what we see with our eyes.
May the Lord Bless You and Give You Peace
Thank you for your kind words. Having two sons with special needs must be very challenging, and yet. I know it is rewarding as well. Children with special needs tend to be special. I have to agree…. the only thing that keeps me going is the hope that there is more than what I can see. So many “coincidences” happen, though, that I am convinced that Sean is still here, working his magic.